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 The Other Side of Things…

Hello again! I know I keep saying I’ll be more active but things just keep happening to me. 

Firstly, my weeks long anxiety attack finally ended around the end of last week after starting around July 13th. It was a horrible experience and I felt like it was never going to end. I was paranoid all the time despite common sense telling me not to be and I was struggling to even drink water regularly. I haven’t felt that much anxiety in years and I hope that next time this happens, I’ll be more prepared for it. 

Second, I’m off all social media besides YouTube and Reddit. I lost my Tumblr account in a (in hindsight, extremely obvious) scam. I got rid of Instagram maybe a week or two ago when my anxiety was peaking and I don’t know if I’ll get it back again. The app definitely has a way of knowing when you’re alone and kept putting a lot of triggering content in my feed when I wasn’t hanging out with anyone, even when I kept hitting not interested. It only gives me more reason to be more active on here, where problems like that can’t happen.

Third, I’m finally going through with a legal name change! I filed my case on the 29th and celebrated with some friends after. I’ve been wanting to do this since I was 17 and especially wanted to get it done before I graduated college. 

Finally, I got a hermit crab on Sunday! His name is Greg House and I plan to get him a Wilson and Cuddy soon. I’m still waiting for more stuff to arrive for their home before I get more. The Petsmart I went to only had one crab and not a great selection of stuff for a shelter, so I had to order a few things online.
house in his new house..

College starts again in less than a month and I’m sure that’ll give me much more to write about. Talk to you guys soon hopefully! -G

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